I went out at the weekend with my friends. Before the pub, I went out for a meal with my boyfriend to celebrate his promotion at work and then we met up with our other friends to carry on drinking. I was having a really nice time with them and was super excited to tell them the gossip I had been storing up all week for them, and when I got there, there was a new girl sat with us.
She seemed really nice and I had a quick chat to her and introduced myself. But after that, I started telling the girls my gossip and this new girl started playing on her phone. I think she was feeling left out because she didn’t know who we were talking about and my story took up a good chunk of the evening.
The problem was that I could see that she was bored and did nothing to help, I just carried on entertaining my friends and being, let’s face it, an attention seeker and blocked her out.
Why do I do that?
I think if I have to pick a fault of mine, I’m probably a bit of a narcissist. I tend to get wrapped up in my own little world and don’t always give other people the attention they deserve because I set my problems up on a pedestal. I don’t do this all the time, and as bad as I am making myself sound, I swear I do listen to others when they need it, but when I get too involved in my own head, I stay there. I like to make people laugh and be the class clown, and everyone who knows me well enough like that about me, but then I meet someone new who doesn’t ‘get’ me yet and they just think I’m a pain in the arse.
I am hoping to meet this girl again at some point and make amends. I messaged the girl who invited her to apologise so she will hopefully tell her friend that I’m not an insane person.
I would say that I’m sorry for the rant on this blog, but I do it too often to be a one-off!
Maybe you can relate to my rambling!